Why is it feeling this way?

Why is it feeling this way? it's scaring me at the thought alone,
it feels like eternity waiting to hear the ring tone go off on my phone,
but everyday it gets less and less, almost like it wants to disappear,
losing the one thing that keeps me going is becoming my biggest fear,
I'm terrified at it but how can i be reassured it won't come true,
if lately it seems like the only time you need is time for you?
i wanna stay a big part of your life not slowly be pushed away,
i feel like I'm standing at the end of a cliff being nudged slowly everyday,
until my feet slip and down i go plummeting to the floor,
it's thoughts like this that get me wishing it stayed the way it was before.
it's supposed to get stronger but it seems like we're drifting,
our mantles of love are not supposed to be shifting,
i will cement this ground with my hands and heart,
if i know it will keep it from falling apart,
i want you, only you and nothing else more,
i refuse to go on feeling like I'm losing the one i adore,
the pain in my chest grows more and more i can feel it wants to burst out of me,
please release this tension so i can once again truly see...
that this is all just an imagination...and at the end of the day just like the start, your the only love of my heart.