Embrace

Embrace yourself guys , I'm gonna talk about drama that happens for the past few weeks in my life.

I hope you guys won't fall asleep halfway thru because I'm snoozing halfway already. :P

Anyway , family drama been going on thru out the past weeks and I really have no idea how to deal with this anymore. 

I know I make mistake and who doesn't but again because of how narrow minded they are , thats why I choose to be rebellious at times. Really dunno how long more I can fucking deal with this anymore. I mean , people say family will never forgets your existence but my family are way different than anyone I guess. Seriously , everyday I have to go thru this piece of crap. Dealing with my mum are still fine but when it comes to my dad , fuck that shit. Like every teenagers have their rebellious time , I believe parents go thru that but my parents never does. Go out till late night , shisha ( okay maybe back then shisha aren't the IN thing yet ) , partying ( well duh , look at my parents , don't think they ever club in their life before , shame on them ) I'm definitely at the time of my life right now , I'm doing all this because I know one day I will eventually gets tired of it ( probably when I hit 23 ) because of work I don't think I even have time for that. They just don't seems like understand this and I don't really see the point. 

Trying to make them happy ? No working. They want me to satisfy them but do they ever consider satisfy me ? Hell No. By giving me money ? Cool. I was aspecting some other thing like Love. 

Bare in mind , you think that I gets love all this while true is No. Never , never in my life my parents nor family support what I do. Choose to do Mass Comm , saying this and fucking that. The fuck ? I'm the one who studying or you are the one who studying ? I really don't get it. 

Just because you're a successful businessman , entrepreneur doesn't mean any other form of job won't be successful. You so call family member just don't get it , don't fuck with me seriously. 

I've been going thru all this shit in awhile I think is time to burst , seriously shit. Just so you know , I'm not longer the innocent small little kids that you guys know , I probably have more piercing than any one of you has. 

I may know nothing about life yet but I went thru a lot by myself all this while. 

Tell me about it. I'm always alone and you guys said anything come find me but true is were u guys there if I need u ? No , the answer state clearly. I have that answer ever since I was 12 

Don't bullshit with me because my mum is sick and stuff. So because of her illness , everyone have been neglecting me. Cool , call yourself family member. 

I don't hate you guys , I just simply wish that I doesn't belongs to this family anymore.

You guys can go ahead to do whatever you guys want , hate on me for being so rebellious , never listen to my parents , never appreciate what I have , never love mum and stuff. I could really careless about what u guys think of me anymore. The love I get from this family are lesser than anything else , what matters me the most right now is my studies and my friends. They were there when you guys not , they never left me behind , they never judge me but you guys did ( indeed ). 

Yes , I glad to call them my family because they understand me. You guys ? Har , the conversation we had are lesser than my toes + fingers all round up together. Tell me about it , family. 

Having major depressed disorder was one of the toughest. I went thru this , BY MY FUCKING SELF.

Hardly anyone knows beside the close friends I have to say. I trust them more than I trust you all so call family. Don't come bash me later after reading this post 

At last , I hope you guys don't come back telling me how you guys neglect me all this while and wish can fix back. True is , one thing are broken , it cannot be fix no matter how hard you guys wanting to.
" To be judged for your imperfections is to be judged for being human , mistakes are made, life goes on , don't let other people change who you are. " 

Till then , I'm off to bed and ready for a new day. 

You think I'm joking ?

How old am I ?
18 turning 19th soon right ?
What fuckery I deserve all this treatment from you and mum ?
I would love to leave this home ( Wait , Does this house even belongs to me ? )
Nope , I don't think so . One getting on me then another one , you guys are way older than
me and you guys think you are the always right one ? * inside middle fingers *
I don't respect you ? I called you and you were busy doing your so call fucking business
and I asked mum to tell about it.
Right now you just yelling at my fucker ( thanks to your gene ) face ?
Really dad ? I know I'm always not a best child but you are not the best father either .
You think no one hates you in this family ? Really ?
Your own siblings which connect with you still say the same shit about you. You are one of the hardest in the family did you know that ?
You keep saying how not well is your family and yadda yadda ?
Have you ever think about my feelings ?
Everyone in this house have to live under your rules , I'm sick and tired of all this shit. I just wanna leave and never come back but  can I ? NO
I'm so tired la. You think is easy to raised up by you ?
The not really funny and joker father ?
Yes , I do get jealous my friend's parents .
Why can't you be just like that ? WHY ?
I know different people have different personality but yours are the sucky of all .
Yes , whatever crap I'm writing now is out of respect but bitch please , fuck me I don't really care.
Growing up in this modern century taught me soo , I mention before I will never educate my children like the way my parents educated me.
If my parents insist of getting extra hands on my children , I'll just send them to oversea.
Yes , whatever I said today , I will make it happen and watch me.
I don't want their * traditional educate * influence my children .
Sorry to say but I just have too.
Perhaps , my mum can tag along .
The father , he can continue dreaming of his old matter of learning and teaching.
I'm still under them , I will try my best to overcome everything and SURVIVE * wtf *

Fairytale Wedding

You know when a small little girl talk about their fairytale wedding , dream about themselves in the perfect wedding dress , which perfect designer to design the dress , walking down the aisle moment with the dad , the reception's decoration , the first dance with the husband , the performances and of course the most important is WHO IS THE PRINCE CHARMING  . Yeah , that is every girls dream after the right guy purposed to them . But BUT BUT the guy side ( to propose , to find the perfect ring , the perfect moment , the flowers and etc etc etc etc etc etc ) Yallah , all this making me nervous in time la . WTF

So this blogpost is dedicated to Jiang & Kim Fairytale Wedding .

Yeah , All the hard work and sweating part is well worth man . 

Yes , I planned my wedding already , from what my bride wearing ( Dress , Shoes , Jewelry and etc ) , planned my reception ( Not gonna plan at Hotel Plaza in New York but I'm doing it in Mandarin Oriental ) MY WEDDING SONG and performances . Heh , so who wanna be my wife better hurry up la #SELFPROMOTE #ThickFace #SangatThickFace 

Speaking off , this happen on the 11.11.2011 . Damn right kan ? 

Is like they pick this date because they want 11 kids , WTF . HAHAHAHAHA

So on the night before , I'm like so Kan cheong and I decide to sleep at 12AM  and woke up at 5 AM, is like I'm the one who getting married . WTF 

So , woke up at 5 AM , change into my white colar shirt and black pants then kick off to klang to meet up the bride . The groom staying over at Sunway Hotel thou 

#ChineseWedding

Jiang getting makeup done before the moment . 

Jiang's nails . 

Hair's Part . 

Putting on Veil on .

DON'T SHE LOOK LOVELY HERE ? 

The most beautiful picture ever . 

On our way to pick the groom up .

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then we picked him up . ( Okay , the reason I put so much dot is because I'm too lazy to take picture ) 

I have see white , red , blue , pink but I never see Orange and PURPLE before . 

 * Sesame Open the Door * #insidejoke

WTT 8181 . 

Cutest Baby from the Family . #IsSoCutieImmaDie

Okay . So this part to test the groom and THE BROTHER ( Me included la ) how tough are we. 

Biscuit with Wasabi and Lemon , Avacado juice with Cilli and Cilli 

and have to finish the beer in dunno how many second la . WTFBBQ

and tell you a secret here , I didn't drank the juice because I know 

is either beyond spicy or beyond meh-ish . 

SMART RIGHT ? 

then one of the represent have to pick up the door key from the bucket which full 

of Ice , Ice and MORE ICE . I escape too 

smart.com 

after 2 tried , no one success so punishment la which is 50 push up . 

yes , I escape again lo. I got weight issue okay ? 

#SoMalaysian

So this part which is the third " Torture " session. 

So , Kim have to figure out which one is Jiang's lips .

Seriously , from maid to auntie and SMALL KIDS pun ada. 

Worst , their all look sama jeh . 

( I actually know the answer one because when Jiang did it , I was in the room )

but I only told Kim is purple color la and guess what  HE GENUISLY PROUD , TOOK THE PAPER , TURN IT AND SEE AND HE GOT THE WRONG ONE. 

#Faileddotcom

and he have to blow a heart shape ballon . Okay la , It works because the 

ballon memang heart shape one ma . 

LAST , YES LAST. 

Kim have to sing love song . Okay la , actually He need to 

watch more MTV man , he only know erm kinda marry me . 

YOU ASK ME MA . 

YES , HE FINALLY PAST ALL . 

5 CREDIT 

NOW , I MAY OFFICIAL SAY YOU'RE HUBBY AND WIFFEY 

Love On Top . 

#SungguhManis 

Brother in the hook yoooo .

Sister in the house hook too . 

Praying Session . 

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Tea Session . The older goes first then youngest

Drinking Session . 

#PretendingToBeCute 

You Success . 

Rachael , Cute not ? 

Dang , she gonna be veli pwetty . 

Family Portrait . 

And The Princess and Prince Left . 

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Going back to Sunway Resort Hotel 

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The Groom's family time . 

Groom Family Picture . 

I shall post till here cause

all this giving slightly headache already . #Kiddingla 

Jiang and Kim , I'm too happy for you . 

Right now , we all are waiting for the good news . 

You know What I mean la . 

Okay , I'll continue the reception dinner in the next post or so . 

btw Happy Marriage and Make more babies . 

Love ya 

Cheers 

Family

I HAVE A CONFESSION TO MAKE ; 

Damnit. I'm not a big fans of my dad AT ALL since I was a little kids. I admit , I hate him . happy with the answer ? Like seriously whenever I'm a really good mood , he have to screw it up and ask me why am I making attitude like WTF , you raise me up then now you asking me WHY ? I can't get a shit of that man. #typicalbimbo

He is like the most typical chinese man I ever meet , He likes to control every single fucking thing like c'mon I'm 18 and you still treated me like I'm 8 months old. The relationship between me and my dad is never good. Sometimes whenever I see friends/kids having really cool/awesome/etc father , I will be like COOL MAN #jealous and I wish I have that kind of father. You might call me rude to say Fuck to my dad but living in this kind of family is never be good. The only job he did is working , working and working. Me never see him putting a effort trying to connect with this family , like totally NEVER. The worst part is , he always bring back his business mood back to home like ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME ? Seriously , I'm fine with you working but bringing home the remain and put it on me ? Go get a mirror and look at yourself see how terrible you're la . No jokes , my mum use to say is fine he is working hard and etc but now SHE WILL JUST COMPLAIN AND COMPLAIN why he come late and etc ? never stop okay.....  =.=

I'm here not tying to bitch about my dad but I'm speak out my feeling okay ? don't get me wrong. 

Once I told him I was a blogger and I'm trying really hard on it then he will go now study first then in the future only think about it , like hello People now are different , blogging can earn money too and etc. I hate when he start the nagging part cause after he start he will connect to other things that not really related like taking care of mum and etc. OH FUCK IT , I know what am I doing la. He always say don't try to compare with each then I was like IF NO FUCKING COMPARE THEN HOW TO IMPROVE OURSELF ? are you kidding me ? He just a chinese men who still have that kind of old fashion minded and I FUCKING DISLIKES. I remember like once when I ever I'm in his shop , he was like taking care that small little kids from next door I was like - HELLO , MY NAME IS FOONG NOT LEE LEH . WTF right ? try to imagine when I'm 9 freaking years old . 

Oh , he hate me joining extra activities but I force my mum to bring me cause I don't want end up like  kids in those drama which cannot study and end up selling VCD in the Pasar Malam . So I force her to bring me to piano , ballet , gymnast , dancing and drawing. #multitallent right ? Well because of him , I have to quit and STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY. WHAT THE FUCK MAX lo 

Seriously , have too much drama when I was a little , too many until I have to use HATE YOU on him every single fucking time after argue with him . Serious shit , he still think I never growth up and etc . 

In plus , he hates me going out really late like once I was in a concert till like 2 ( I think I'm 15 that time ) then when I get back home , he just keep yelling at me for the whole fucking hours . ( I'm glad that is a weekend ) and Believe it or not , I started going out with friends when I'm 14 okay and he only gave me 50 bucks. Look at the kids right now , 13 years old already going out till late night. Oh , I never sleepover in any friends house before , because If I wanted , he will ask me friends num , address , parents num and etc till now . I NEVER EVER WANTED TO ASK HIM 

Lecturing/Nagging. I hate when he start it man , like FUCK YOU I HOPE YOU'RE MUTE. Seriously , shut up , everyday come back home nag the same part . #meh 

Sometimes he is fine but most of the time , He just PMS like there is no tomorrow. I hate it , I hate it , 

he always say i'm so useless and etc , hello LOOK AT THE OTHER KIDS , they are 10 times worst than me okay ? Do I have 900 bucks phone bill ? Do I buy clothes every fucking day ? Do I go out everyday ? NOOOO , I don't do all the things above. I JUST DON'T 

Dad , sometimes you gotta walk out the fucking box and try to see around. World are changing every single second , don't assume it stil the same after 10 years. 

and also , he lost trust on me . I told him I have no class or etc , he have to ring up the college and ask him weather true or not. TRUST FUCKER TRUST

So basically the relationship that my father and I is just water and oil , We can never be mix together LIKE FUCKING NEVER.
Sometimes I wish I'm living in a Single family or More open minded and less conservative dad. 

Tomorrow I'm going to Japan for a 6 night trip and He have to ruined my mood a night before. 

He always do that before I'm leaving to a fucking country.

He say that I can't bring my mac along LIKE WTF , IS MY MACBOOK NOT YOURS , YOU DON'T HAVE THE FUCKING RIGHT TO TELL ME I CAN'T BRING ALONG. 
See this why I don't like him , he just love to control every single fucking things in my fucked up life . Please bitch , You think I will listen to you where you have no been a father figure since I was a kids . NO , I will bring my mac along and online there. Fucking piece of shit I will care , lock me out or granded me cause I don't shit care. 

Kay , I'm so bitchy now and I can't even breath like a bitch . 

anyways I gotta get to my bed now cause I have noon class tomorrow before flight so ya .. HE IS THE ONE FORCE ME TO GO OKAY .. What a bitch 

Cheers for now and Do not judge me saying I'm son of the bitch , rude and etc because I'm just trying to express my feelings here. 

#iamthebitch