Better Days .

She stars look dull tonight.

I wonder if you see them like I do.

Everything was always so much brighter when we were 'together'.

More Alive.

I dreamed that you were gone a while ago.

I was so naive to think something like that would never happen.

I resent you for doing this to me but you did what you thought you had to.

I understand that.

I still have those cute messages you used to send me.

I cant bare to delete them; they're my only evidence of the happiness you gave me.

Though, I can't read them either; they will only remind me of what I've lost.

I saved the message you sent me telling me we couln't be together, it seems like I've read it thousands of times over, I just can't bring myself to delete it.

It's kind of pathetic that I've kept them, it's like my life depends on them.

Sometimes I think it does because they still make me smile, and sometimes a smile is all I need to get through the day. I guess I can't erase the memories, but I'm not complaining.

Sure I've given up on you, but I can't move on ..

I'm in denial, I still ---- you.

I'm not saying the word anymore.

But fuck this, my eyes are starting to blur now.

I hope this'll lead to better days ..