# Defying gravity

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'm through accepting limits
''cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And never bring me down!
bring me down!
ohh ohhh ohhhh!

# What happen ?

For the past few weeks , I always in that particular moody mood. what happen actually ?
I just don't get it man and I'm leaving to Japan in 2 days time , isit now I should feel excited instead of moody shit.
Iman took me that , Arran ,  you should just let go of everything instead of keeping it in your heart , cause it will made you gone to moody in the max .
Should I just leave it and walk away or keep waiting for it to happen ? see I just don't get it .
I always asked myself , IS MIRACLES GONNA HAPPEN ?
I keep asking myself this fucking question and I did tell myself that yes but now......
I won't be answer the same question , I will answer WHEN IS GONNA TO HAPPEN ?
I have been waiting for 1.2.3 years and it doesn't happen at all.
I look back all the notes / Diares / and what ever I wrote about you , I feel I'm a retarted but sometimes I feel , damn it I fall for you again.
I use to crazy about you when I was in gred 9 ( form3) but now nah , maybe the feelings get tasteless by the age.
Why god chose me so surfer ? instead of you who hurt me the most of the time
Everytime I think I'm closer to the heart
Of what it means to know just who I am
I think I've finally found a better place to start
But no one ever seems to understand.
For now , nothing can cheer me up , I know how you guys try to cheer me up but it doesn't work on me. Sorry
maybe the problem is happen on me , so I have to deal with it by myself.
so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about other pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy,
but I just realize want to be happy is not that easy....uurrghh
Arran , what happen to you ? are you feeling ok ? tell me what happen ?
all this question started ,  when my face start turning moody or I doesn't laugh or talk at all.
but would you ask this question to me ? I don't think you will give a damn about how does my face look like.
I hope before Japan , I can get over this shit mood if not I'm gonna get into that mood every single day started tomorrow of thursday .
sorry reader , I have alot of grammar error. sorry peeps.

Xx arran 2010

# Experience

In my chest there's a heart, a heart with a place for u.

if u leave i will not breathe, i could but i wouldn't bcoz there's no point of living if living is without u.
i live life to the fullest, and to the fullest of life i wanna live with u.
baby girl there's no other meaning of life to me, no other meaning of life other than u..

'nobody is perfect' they say and 'nobody is true'.
but u completed me and made me perfect and we know it's god damn true.
ups and downs and rise and fall we've been through.
yet,we're still standing firm on our feet together on the ground that i've made for u.

maybe there's a lesson we should learn,
maybe the word 'us' need to be worked harder to be earned.
maybe we just love one another, and maybe we just meant to be together.
i know its too early to be sure, but confidence won't hurt anyone any other.

we've learnt alot through experience but tend to forget more through days.
we know each other well for good reasons but knowing too well can get us damaged.

i don't know about anything and i'm not sure about everything.
but i do know that i love u, and i am sure that u love me too.

i am not a fighter, nor am i a lover
i'm just a person who will only fight for u,and to me u r wut love means

for all the things we've done and said, and for all the things that we'll do and say,
i wanna say thank u.u are more than someone or something to me.
u're everything.

i love u.

Lost in that direction

I feel lost. Lost than ever before. Maybe this is part of growing up? are fucking kidding.

So fuck it. I don't know who I am. 

I feel like I haven't achieved anything in my 17 years of life. and having every heartbroken moment all the time .


Photography, music without a doubt still inspires me. But the only thing is, instead of pursuing in doing these things, I'm slacking off at home. 

F**K 17 year old arran.

# Silkygirl Cheer Competition

Hey hey guys , welcome back . wthell man , lolx . Cheer comp this year is not as fun as last year cause XAVIER  is not in =( ! Anyways , congrats CRYENS from Sri Kuala Lumpur for the winning , you guys deserve everything. Can you guys share some goodies to me ? aha joking . ok picture babe.

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Putra Indoor Stadium , Bukit Jalil.

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look at her ? whats wrong man ?

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I can't realy remember which team is this. sorry people !=P

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Blitzerz supporter , CYRENS supporter..........

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SARAH JUICY and ARRAN ARMANI. Does we sound classic ?

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How the hell he look like ? aha awesome ? nah , normal

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The awesome 4 accept for reek...haha JK

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3 of us awesome right shan ? aha

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We did alot of camwhore.

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hahahahahaha. sarah

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SHANICE AU YIVA

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awesome - credit to shermian sham

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actually got alot but I just random choose , =P!

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Idiot face for me not her....damn it

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AWESOME

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SHANICE

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Brian Ong ...errrmm

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safe me please ?

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crazy shit man.....

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yerr..why like that 1? ( malaysian english)

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the malay dude behind us is so uurrgghh....

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CHARM ALL STAR

P/s : actually got more picture but I just don't want to make my blog lag so yeah.

This year is quite fun cause shanice , sarah , shermaine and angela was there.

and my leg f**king shit hurt , because 

1. I split and handspring for 1 hours.

2. fall down from the stund , stupid base.

3.I have no idea.

Xx people

SILKYGIRL CHEER COMPETITION 2010 

HERE I COME !!!!

Start Time:	Saturday, July 10, 2010 at 10:00am
End Time:	Sunday, July 11, 2010 at 5:00pm
Location:	Stadium Putra, Bukit Jalil National Sports Complex

# Lucky Bitch 7

: Okie , so macam mana ni ? kawan baik punya hari jadi. aha. SOFIA , I fucking shit miss you man , are chu going to cheer comp this weekend ? heh , kalau kau tak gi , siap kau. hahahaha. remember , last year we had so fucking many shit fun together end up you're leaving..wtshit weiyh. " I can't belive you stole my boyfriend!" , "Do I look like I care". hahaha never forget this awesome script. and yet remember masa sejarah , she call us to sing a song or something like that , you making fun of that song and ends up both of us laughing like an idiot man.hahahahahahaha miss lara's party (you with you leopard print, smexy)and loads more . even we meet u each other this year once during hanif party but still not enough. sorry for writing so much and I know it gonna hurt your eyes but I don't care , I nak training myself for SPM right now. aha almost 12 right now , i think i gonna be the first who wish you at 12 am. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE and SMEXT 17.. see you soon in CHEER . BRING IT ON biotch
This might not be the best gift but still....

CHORAL SPEAKING BABE

The birthday bitch who brings us the champion of choral speaking.

Zibra print outfit crash with CANDYLAND

For sure you will mad at me for putting this ugly shoot of you. pfff

merdeka , merdeka , merdeka.

We all miss you doh.. NENEK

Xx arranzai 2010

# Wish List

Okay , Let's see , How should I start this bloody birthday wish list man ? wtf pfff
Okie , Dear friends , do you guys remember the date that I started crying and Shiting on the pampers ?
If you guys doesn't know , I will tell you right now .
Take Note people , is 19 August .aha , so right now you know what to do la.
Normally every year I will get the samething like text , post on my fb wall , tweet me gao gao* I just have twitter this year and I had already reach 2,200th tweets* PRO , blog about me and a bunch of non-stop phone ringing. ( dude , don't so perasan la) aha
Wait my wish list is below. * Sorry , I am kind of desperate of this stuff now this*

This is one of the most adorable camera compare to Lomo.

It call Diana Mini F . * Britney Kua own 1 , Gah *

This is Sidekick 3 , is limited edition doh. 

I saw this in Keeping Up with that Kardashians , Kimmy own 1.

And I don't think so you can get this in Malaysia cause this only selling in state.

oh yet , who will so kind giving me a iphone right now ?

Accept for Iman or other cousin who view my blog .

This the the case I wanted even I doesn't own a iphone right now. pffff

Who will so kind to get me all the colour i wanted ?

Oh well , right now I just own Hot Pink , Chili Red and Grey.

I doesn't realy know where to get this shoe doh , Does it look awesome with my foot ?

The brand is call Supra , saw alot of singaporian love it but do malaysian love it too ? Nah

Okay , first thing I'm gonna scream is BOYS LIKE GIRLS.

Okay , so i think you guys know I pretty crazy about Boys Like Girls right ?

If you guys doesn't know then fuck off man , hahaha *kidding*

If you guys can get any of the Exclusive T-shirt or the Jacket for me from BLG , I will like Love you no matter you're dude or chick. aha

This is what I realy hope I can get . pff 

This and the Diana Mini F.

This is the 1 that I made for Lin Vin , is limited edition ok..you can get so many people who realy want to sign for you. pff * sorry LV , I doesn't mean it to you*

First , I love this earphone since the day I saw it in LADY GAGA video clips 

*somehow I doesn't remember which video clips was it*

Anyways , the price might be a little but high but is a classic gaga earphone so who cares.

aha , i think it coss 600 Ringgit in malaysia according to Mikhail la. 

OK , this cupcake is from Bijoux. 

The best cupcake ever, compare to cupcake chic is like my lord.

 I doesn't mind about cupcakechic , atleast I got a cake man. aha

But last should not miss is belanjar me at SNOWFLAKE * made sure is Japan Combo x3 

and 

KOREA BBQ at Bon Ga or Park's Garden. wheee

Can't wait for it .

44 days more to go

and

Minus the 7 days to Japan.

DEAR BRITNEY KUA ,

                                       Sorry for the present which gonna arrived 3 weeks from now means The present I will bring back from japan , so don't worried yours should be the special one cause made in Japan. aha Sorry , Sorry and Sorry.

Anyways , 
HAPPY BIRTHDAY , BRITDAY , BORNDAY and Super Sweet/Sugar 16th. 

                    

Xx , arranBLG

# I just have that feeling

When I stand in a crowded room
I feel alone like nobody's there
And when you talk cold to me
I can see your breath in the air
It's taking it's toll on me
In the bathroom taking showers
So you don't see me cry
Baby it's such a crime

I try to feel confident
I'm bitter 
You're not making sense
I missed you 'til you almost took my sanity
I started a new verse like

Poetry, you're hiding behind the words you speak
Changing the words of the story
You say you don't love me then say that you love me
I'm fighting
You're hiding behind the words you're speaking
You're changing the words, I'm lost in the verse
You say you don't love me then say that you love me
Why are you hiding?

When I give you gratitude
You act like you don't hear me speak
When I tell you what you do to me
You don't even hear the truth
What are you trying to prove; 
I stare out of the window for hours
Cause you don't listen to me
You won't even look in my eyes

I try to feel confidentI'm bitter
You're not making sense
I missed you 'til you almost took my sanity
I started a new verse like

Poetry, you're hiding behind the words you speak
Changing the words of the story
You say you don't love me then say that you love me
I'm fighting
You're hiding behind the words you're speaking
You're changing the words, I'm lost in the verse
You say you don't love me then say that you love me
Why are you hiding?

Don't believe what you're saying
I read your face and I'm blanking
Cause I don't know what's in front of my eyes
I try to feel confident