You let me go

Another lonely day another lonely night
I sleep in our old bed holding my pillow tight
I have yet to close my eyes because all I see is you
and it breaks my heart just thinking of what you put me thru

You said that you loved me and that you'd never hurt me so
and now I cant stop thinking of the day I watched you go
you turned your back on me just like you always did
but i didn't expect for you to turn your back on the kids

You put everything else first and its a damn shame
and my heart is hurting so but I only have myself to blame
how could I have stayed all the years that I stayed with you
hearing and seeing you disrespect me even after all the shit I do

Funny as it seems even after all I still loved you
to me it just seemed like the normal thing to do
I let the cruel acts you did slide every day
instead I pretended like it didn't hurt and smiled like I was OK

I painted this pretty picture when I talked about you to my friends
it didnt take long for them to find out I could no longer pretend
that you were good to me and that you treated me so right
when family and friends would see me upset over another fight

How can I still think of you and wonder why you don't call
when I know you don't give a damn and not thinking of me at all
i cried so many times I think I've finally grew numb to the situation
the love has finally died, with not even an ounce of infatuation

Were done I think for good, at least thats how it feels
Ill never be the same again cause now I know this love wasn't real
you told me that you loved me and you would never hurt me so
but all I can still think about is the day I watched you go