This not rubbish .

OHMYFUCKINGLORD , I HAVEN'T BLOG ALMOST 2 WEEKS . WTF
Oh maybe more than that . Oh well , got caught up with bunch of assignment ( MEH ) ( I still have 4 more to go ) AMEN , JESUS WHAI YOU SO BAD TO ME ? Oh well , I still have 1 more sem to go then I'm done with life in IACT ( Okay , I'm going to apply RMIT and Some event management's college in Switzerland ) Okay , right now I'm dreaming really big okay. No jokes ,  I wanna own a Audi TT ,  I wanna own Range Rover Sport , I wanna own Hummer H3 , I wanna own Bentely Continental GT , I wanna own a Butik ( I HATE DRAWING , I WANNA BE THE OWNER OF LOVE , BUNITO ) I wanna own a beach house in Bel Air ( YEAH , I WANNA HAVE NAKED NEIGHBOURS SO SEX AND THE CITY , FREE PORN MAN ) WTF .. FML
Yeah , whatever people dream you can see it in my list man . Hahahaha Okay , actually to own so many things before I close " my eyes and never see the next day sun "  is impossible man but I always keep in my mind that MUST AT LEAST OWN 2 OR 3 THING . WTFBBQ
Sorry la , I won't beg my parents to get all those for me because I don't ( sek toll hai ) . Hahahaha but mostly I wanna own a butik after Uni life . Okay la , I always dream big one . I dream I work under Kimora Lee Simmons , Farah Khan , Vogue , Elle . I WANNA BECOME STYLIST , I WANNA BECOME FASHION DESIGNER . HAHAHAHA Farny not ? lame.jpg
But the point of being a designer is , drawing . I got no talent when it comes to a pensil and a art block . I can think really well but I just can't draw la . Got inspiration but dunno how to draw also no point la , is like cooking chicken rice when you don't have chicken . ADUI , maybe stylist is my road la . I dunno lah , being a stylist make me feel proud in a way , I get to doll up celebrities ( of course , not malaysian la because they have this attitude to me ) MM SONG MAX , Yala , call me bitchy or what but those celebrities is memang one lar , like one day I tweeted some host for one show I say she is inspiration and bla bla until now no reply leh . MALAYSIAN CELEB TRYING TO ACT LIKE THEY ARE THE HIGHER , PLEASE LA , SOMEONE YOUNGER GONNA TAKE YOUR SPOT SOON . WTF
Is someone gonna sue me or something ? hahahahaha I'm speaking true what , if you wanna sue means you memang have that kind of attitude lo .
Event Manager. I love to plan event , from little kids party to some bachelorette party , I CAN DO IT . Of course not all by myself la .. DUH
Yallah , I can barely type or talk so don't aspect to see me appear on YOUR TV Or being emcee in some event . NO HELL WAY I CAN TALK LIKE A REAL DEAL . WTF
Plus , I curse beyond too much . ( WTF , I just did )
Yeah , I guess stuck between stylist and event management . I'm soo lazy to think about my whole future right now , SOOOOO LAZY LA . I don't mind end up like Cheesie or Xiaxue ( yeah , I want someone to Sponsor me for nose job , teeth and most important MY SPAIR TAYAR WTF ) .
Seriously , I don't get it . You blog something , you get free stuff rest of your life ? What come worst is , something they even complain about it . IF DON'T LIKE THEN GIVE ME LA , I WOULD LOVE TO TAKE ALL . #Cheapskate.jpg

#CloseYourEyesBecauseYouGonnaGetNightMares

So I'll just end my post here .

Next post gonna be about the Fairytale wedding .
Cheers

Growing Apart

Once someone say  " Growing up is never easy , you hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come but that night , I think we knew it was time to let of what had been and look ahead to what would be. Others days , new days , days to come , the thing is , we didn't have to hate each other for getting older . We just had to forgive ourselves .... for growing up . "
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.
Remember when... ollie-ollie-oxen free meant something?... getting high meant swinging at the playground? ...the worst thing you could get from boys were cooties? ...dad was our hero and mom was the girl you were going to marry? ...your worst enemies were your siblings? race issues were who ran the fastest, and war was a card game? life was simple and care free...but what I remember most was wanting to grow up. Now ollie-ollie-oxen free is just some gibberish... getting high is a major issue... and pot isn't just a pan in the kitchen... stds and babies are huge compared to cooties...dads an asshole and mom wants to marry you off... your siblings are your best friends... be nice to them... race issues and war are common things these days, and it's not fun anymore... and sometimes I wish I were 2 again because skinned knees are easier mended than broken hearts...
Have you ever heard a song from so long ago with so many memories tied to it that it made you cry? And didn't you wish that you could go back into time when everything seemed so much simpler and carefree? Those are songs that are the soundtrack of our lives... the ones that bring back childhood memories, best friends, first love, first heartbreak... the memories. Yes , memories always remain the same even though people in the picture change. I think for everyone , most human on earth believe picture describe the perfect moment . 
By living each day to its absolute fullest you not only sleep better at night but you are one step closer to your dreams

take chances. tell the truth. date someone totally wrong for you. say no. spend all your cash. fall in love. get to know someone random. be random. say i love you. sing out loud. laugh at a stupid joke. cry. get revenge. apologize. tell someone how much they mean to you. tell a jerk what you feel. let someone know what they're missing. stalk someone. blackmail. laugh til your stomach hurts. live life 

There is not a shred of evidence to support the theory that life is meant to be serious

My Super Not Sweet Sixteen 

Forever And Always 

Best High School Memories . The best nothing beat this 

Short and Sweet . 

Those time in class .. Crazy kids back then 

Probably the best issue of the magazine I've see . SOMEONE PUBLISH IT

I shall end with myself jumping to show I'm growing . 

Joy Jump . 

Gonna end this post right now before I start crying again . 

Having a hard time looking through all the picture I took back in high school , I so much prefer High School then college . 

Shall off now , Cheers everyone . 

Love defies generalizations. Poets, philosophers, theologians, and countless others have ascribed their own theories and interpretations but often they still fall short of the goal of capturing the true nature of this unfathomable entity. The strength of love lies in its diversity. It possesses the unique ability to evolve, change, and permutate over the course of our lives. Just as we grow outwardly we must also grow inwardly. Our thoughts, realizations, and perceptions are given credence by our individual experiences on the separate paths we follow in our quest for love. And as love is an integral part of our inner selves, so it must grow and mature as well. It possesses the ability to adapt to its internal as well as its external environment. It not only changes as we change but it also ebbs and flows outwardly dependent on the receptivity of those to whom it is directed.

Parental Control

( THIS BLOG POST IS ABOUT MY PERSONAL FEELINGS OKAY AND DON'T GO JUDGE ME SAYING I'M FUCKING RUDE KAY ....... WTF )
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So recently I have an argument with my dad ( I love you mummy , you're safe for now ) about me driving out too much and going out so often. YOU CALL ME AS OFTEN ? ( Btw I don't really go out that often lo like seriously no JOKES la , my latest event will be till 12 shape then I will roll back home already lor ) FML T.T
First driving . Hey dude , you're the one who asked me to go get license and etc lalalalalal..... and now you scolded me drive too much ? what do you actually aspect me to do ? seat home and do dirty job everyfuckingdaytill I'm 21 ? Eh , I'm 18 years old not 8 months old leh ( WTF , doing dirty job for 4 year ) STOP TREATING ME LIKE ONE OF THOSE KIDS WHO GO OUT EVERY FUCKING NIGHT , COME HOME LATE WHEN I NOT EVEN GO OUT EVERY FUCKEN NIGHT .
I know I still under control by you but please , let me do my own things and chase my own dream la.
I'm not mad but I'm fighting for my own rights , I'm human too I have attitude too , I have emotion too .
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Sometimes when I did something wrong and of course I'll say sorry la but when you blame me and when you find out the true and the person is not me , DO YOU EVEN SAY SORRY TO ME ? One thing I don't like about you is , you blame me I'm fine but when you blame me and start scolding me all the punani words/Puntek words , there goes me raising up with my tone then we end up yelling at each other . I FUCKING HATE FIGHTS OKAY
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Secondly , college . DUH , YOU NEVER GO TO COLLEGE BEFORE MEH ? ASSIGNMENT CARRY LOAD OF MARKS TO LA BESIDE EXAM AND ATTENDANCES. Can you please go ask my cousin and uncles that does assignment really that important .
Seriously yesterday was the fucked up one . I
told my mum I'm going out to do my assignment and then hours later when I arrived at my friends and dad called and FUCKING YELLED at me say that what are you doing out there again? Since when I go out the day before la dei . Fine I answer I'm doing my assignment and he say okay then be home at 2 . FUCKER , I'M NOT EVEN STARTED YET LEH THAT TIME HOW TO GO BACK HOME ? Fine so when I reached home at 4.30 and not even 5 , I called him again and kindly tell him I'm home and then this is what happen ;
Me : I'm home
Dad : what time is it ?
Me : 4.30
Dad : what assignment is this ?
Me : Business Social Assignment
Dad : Give me you friends add , I go look for her and ask her .
Me : ( tell him the apartment name and location )
Dad : I'll go ask. YOU DO WITH YOU CLASSMATES ? YOU CLASS GOT FRIENDS ONE MEH . ( This is the worst line man , eh bastard you memang puntek la , what talking you )
Me : duh , I have friends and we doing our assignment together okay .
Dad : you head la .
Me : ( at this moment I wanted to scold him sohai already )
Me : * Off to phone  * and yell at him say stop treating me like a kids please , I'm not 8 years old , I'm 18 .
few mins later he called back
Dad : why you off you phone ?
Me : because I'm done with you
Dad : * cannot remember what he say already cause was too pissed *
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He got back and start yelling at me and scold me for that . DIU , I'M DOING ASSIGNMENT AND YOU'RE THE ONE NOT BELIEVE ALSO MY FAULT LA NOW , DAMN FUCKER AT TIMES ONE LA . IF YOU UNHAPPY WITH ME THEN SEND ME TO A BOARDING SCHOOL LOR THEN SAVE YOUR ENERGY TO YELL WITH ME .

Those post up there is special for my dad , hope he read it and realize something is going too wrong between me and him .
I shall go now before I start complaining already ,
Cheers and have a happy weekend .