Hello November , Hello SPM , Hello Bitchess
Is the first day of November , did i feel excited ? Not at all . But at least better than past few months . SPM is in 22 days more , guess what ? I'm not really ready man . Oh well , I still got few more weeks to go , I shall bring books walking around man . Haha , this is what i"m doing a month before exam . I shall stop talking about SPM .
Yes , being so emotion this past few months . Well , when everyone first thing though about me is I look like a MALAY dude , posting all the emo post in here , emo quotes in facebook status and facking spam the twitter ( OMGOSH , I have more than 9000th tweets now ) . Having a conversation with Liann , and she say almost half of my my tweets is all about emo feelings man . Well what to do ? you guys should not blame me for that , just blame that particular person who smash my bloody heart . I don't really get it now this people love to see the others get hurt , gosh no balls meh ? I just have 22 days more to go , then i will never ever see your face again in my life . THANK YOU LORD
Gracias people , I need to learn spanish right after SPM . Anyone with me ? the fees pay yourself la . Hahaha
Great News : Hannah just called , she is coming back this thursday . Means she reach here at thursday la . I god miss her man , she been away from this country since I was form 1 . she just came back every CNY and Christmas . Aha , meet her last year but only for a days because she have to catch up with the Uni life ( currently she in columbia ). She going Brown next year , gosh mother beta pi . hahaha mummy use to from that Uni but she never graduates there but she graduates in NYU ( Nan Yang Uni , Singapore ) then she meet my dad then move back here and marry .
I'm waiting for you Hannah , I need my Dylan Candy Bar stuff , adrianna VS bra and gifts from dickson .
Monday, November 1
If I Opened Up My Heart To You
I suppose you can say I lied, when I said I didn't care.
I guess when I wrote you off, that I wasn't being fair.
Well I was in over my head and taking it out on you,
I was losing something precious, I guess you were too.
I suppose you can blame me for my own unhappiness.
I guess that in the end I brought upon myself this mess.
Well I'm not sorry for the way I acted; just a little bit;
Okay, fine, maybe I'm sitting here regretting all of it,
But that doesn't mean that you'll ever get an apology.
At least not until the bitterness has nearly killed me.
I'm not sorry for the way I acted, that's just how I am.
I grew up learning how to properly not give a damn.
I'm just sorry that you loved me and I deceived you.
I never thought that you would think I loved you too.
I suppose that you could say that I over-analyzed it all.
You always said my critical thinking would be my fall.
I put words into places that they should never ever be,
And made something out of nothing, condemning me.
I broke your heart the hardest, never second guessed,
I just let you down so easily, but you know that best.
Now I can't help but wonder if I did something wrong.
Was I lying to myself and I just dragged you along?
I said I didn't love you, a heart like mine just can't feel,
But now I'm wondering if those words were ever real.
One day you gave up on me, and I understand why.
Now all I can ever think about is how I let you slip by.
All I had to do was look inside, at the feelings I ignore,
And I could have stopped you from walking out my door.
It kills me inside, now I know better but you're through.
I could have saved us, only if I opened my heart to you.
I guess when I wrote you off, that I wasn't being fair.
Well I was in over my head and taking it out on you,
I was losing something precious, I guess you were too.
I suppose you can blame me for my own unhappiness.
I guess that in the end I brought upon myself this mess.
Well I'm not sorry for the way I acted; just a little bit;
Okay, fine, maybe I'm sitting here regretting all of it,
But that doesn't mean that you'll ever get an apology.
At least not until the bitterness has nearly killed me.
I'm not sorry for the way I acted, that's just how I am.
I grew up learning how to properly not give a damn.
I'm just sorry that you loved me and I deceived you.
I never thought that you would think I loved you too.
I suppose that you could say that I over-analyzed it all.
You always said my critical thinking would be my fall.
I put words into places that they should never ever be,
And made something out of nothing, condemning me.
I broke your heart the hardest, never second guessed,
I just let you down so easily, but you know that best.
Now I can't help but wonder if I did something wrong.
Was I lying to myself and I just dragged you along?
I said I didn't love you, a heart like mine just can't feel,
But now I'm wondering if those words were ever real.
One day you gave up on me, and I understand why.
Now all I can ever think about is how I let you slip by.
All I had to do was look inside, at the feelings I ignore,
And I could have stopped you from walking out my door.
It kills me inside, now I know better but you're through.
I could have saved us, only if I opened my heart to you.
Only
You once stared into these eyes
and whispered words of lies
you once shared the deepest thoughts
the ones i thought would never tear us apart
you once told me i was your everything
but turned around and tore up everything that i ever was
you once said your the only exception i'd ever make cuz i love you that much
what we have is not fake
until that day
u found another
that made u happy
made u flutter
said the right words and showed they cared
as u left me standing there i tried to show i didnt care
when deep inside i was torn apart
cuz of all the lies you ever said and we were being torn apart
you once said i was the only exception cuz i you loved me more than i loved you
but the truth was it was all just a game to you
simple words, a simple girl
you tore apart with 2 words
its over , isnt a great thing to hear but in the end , it was the only words i still remember to this day
the only exception is such a lie
cuz theres always sumone on the side
its funny now tho cuz ive found the true love that was waiting all along
and now its realer to me that u ever were before
so with this i dont regret would never go back
cause she is the only exception i'd give up everything to be with her
you were just a fact of growing up
im much happier now and thats my excpetion of faith
and whispered words of lies
you once shared the deepest thoughts
the ones i thought would never tear us apart
you once told me i was your everything
but turned around and tore up everything that i ever was
you once said your the only exception i'd ever make cuz i love you that much
what we have is not fake
until that day
u found another
that made u happy
made u flutter
said the right words and showed they cared
as u left me standing there i tried to show i didnt care
when deep inside i was torn apart
cuz of all the lies you ever said and we were being torn apart
you once said i was the only exception cuz i you loved me more than i loved you
but the truth was it was all just a game to you
simple words, a simple girl
you tore apart with 2 words
its over , isnt a great thing to hear but in the end , it was the only words i still remember to this day
the only exception is such a lie
cuz theres always sumone on the side
its funny now tho cuz ive found the true love that was waiting all along
and now its realer to me that u ever were before
so with this i dont regret would never go back
cause she is the only exception i'd give up everything to be with her
you were just a fact of growing up
im much happier now and thats my excpetion of faith
Rather than lie, lets pretend to care
Every sitution becomes a burden more
You could careless
And as I digress
You supress every emotion for me
By ignoring me...
If monsters were people
I'd believe it
Cause cruel things we do
And no lie could keep me from presuing
But I guess illusions were your game
False realitys that maksed true desire
Could you believe, could you believe...
Every walk
Every kiss
Every conversation
Was meaningless...
In the face of a liars true desire
You could careless
And as I digress
You supress every emotion for me
By ignoring me...
If monsters were people
I'd believe it
Cause cruel things we do
And no lie could keep me from presuing
But I guess illusions were your game
False realitys that maksed true desire
Could you believe, could you believe...
Every walk
Every kiss
Every conversation
Was meaningless...
In the face of a liars true desire
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