Sometimes

So what ? So what I have best parents that buy me everything ? 

So what I have everything ? So what I have the best thing ? 

I am not happy . You know that ? 

No. You know nothing and You don't give a fuck at all . 

Sometimes I ask myself , weather am I giving myself way of move on or just 

sit there and thinks there is miracle . I dunno 

Sometimes I wanna ask you , why we break it ? 

Sometimes I wonder am I too straight forward ? 

Or just doesn't want accept the fact about us. 

I dunno I dunno I dunno I dunno . * break glass * 

You know when you upset about certain things , you just pretend it never happen and hopes self can move on . 

But in real life , you'll get tired of pretending all this shits. 

Everything have limits , I believe pretending have limits too. 

You are happy out there but here I am standing along pretending everything is fine. 

I'm just upset everything. 

Last night 3am , I couldn't sleep because of thinking of it . I dunno , really dunno. 

All I did was just stoning at my balcony and blasting depressed song from my phone. 

I won't give up on repeated. I just started tearing from no way 

4 am , I finally able to fall asleep but I dreamed about you . 

Maybe you thinks you mean nothing to you but you mean everything to me. 

Sometimes I wish can go back and nothing happen . Nothing 

Sometimes . The words sometimes may sound possible to me but in my heart , mind all 

just impossible. Why would you ever come back ? Why would you ? 

You left me , Remember ? 

I just wondering have you ever being real to me or just faking yourself and play around ? 

I dunno , give me an answer. I just can't 

I'm so tired of saying " I'm okay " , " I'm moving on " and I'm so tired of faking my smile. 

Cry ? what's the point ? 

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Yes , I'm having the bad day . Bad Bad Bad one